A Heritage From the Lord part 2

(please scroll down to read part 1 first)

As I said, the Lord had been challenging my husband and I to trust Him with more and more areas in our lives- money, career, etc. I also had come to believe He wanted us to trust Him with our family size. If the Lord can open and close the womb, then giving Him control would simply mean He would be the one to decide if, when and how many children we would have.

But I felt like this change of heart would be backing out of an agreement I had made with my husband before we got married, and for several weeks, was afraid to bring it up.

Finally I did. And to my shock, he responded, "Yes, I believe the Lord has been telling me to trust Him with our family size too."

Of course this "trust" I was about to give the Lord had  a certain time buffer attached to it. The baby was only 8 months old, and I was nursing him. With my first two babies, my cycles took a full 12 months to resume. So I figured I had a least four months before I had to even worry about getting pregnant again.

But that Sunday, as I sat in church, my period came. I had to drive home in the middle of service and change my clothes. My mind was reeling. I felt set up.

"God got me to agree and now He's going to take advantage of my trust," I thought. 

Some trust, huh?

A True Change of Heart

In the days and weeks that followed my change of heart came. There was no period the next month. I was pregnant. But instead of being scared, worried or angry, I was happy and excited.

It was as if The Lord was saying," I had something I wanted to give you, but I wanted to place it in your open palm, not to pry your fingers open."

More to come...